That's how the light gets in. "
Tomorrow marks the start of the last 50 days of the year and I'm returning for the 4th year to try and capture some of the thoughts, dreams, dramas, events and everything else that made up my year into an online journal which nobody may even read.
It was the year which marked my 40th here on this planet Earth that I call home.
It hasn't been an easy year but I'm not sure I expected it to be so hard either.
In hindsight perhaps it was easier then other years - I feel more at peace with who I am and even though I am in between where I was and where I am going I am no longer as concerned about what others may think. It is my journey and I need to follow my own path.
It was harder as I started facing some truths about the reality of having to let go of people, places, hopes and memories - even when I wanted to hold on for dear life. The acceptance that what I want is not necessarily what is good for me. That what is right of others is not necessarily what is right for me and the strength from deep inside me to set the boundary and say no.
That is life - you cannot have the good without the bad. The trick is to find balance in it all and to keep striving to be the best you in that moment.
Those cracks which have formed from the grief, hardships and doubts are allowing the smidgen of light to seep in and somewhere deep inside me it is feeding my soul and leading me forward - one step at a time. I may wobble. I may miss a step. I may even end up on a path I didn't even know existed but I continue to try and that is what counts.
So join me as I capture the good, the bad and the ugly of what has made 2016 a remarkable year for me.
And remember ...