Patience is a good virtue to learn.
On that note that we never do know what is going to pop out the bag on a day to day basis. We all wake up with a view of what we want our day to be like, our own to do lists, but events can knock us off course suddenly and unexpectedly. Patience is the key to help us cope.
I've always been a planner... I like to have my life set out in an orderly manner. Well has that only but backfired on me in the last 12 months. Every time I think I just have a handle on something out pops something else. At first it was intensely irritating. For someone who plans to the minute there is nothing worse then the unexpected throwing a spanner into the works. Too say my patience was stretched to its thinnest would be putting it mildly!
I'm learning to adjust. To try and take things in my stride and not get thrown off course by the unplanned. It isn't easy to let go of control. Control becomes a safety net. A safe haven to which you can retreat. When you let that go you have to let go of all sorts of expectations of yourself. You have to open yourself up to failure. Possible guilt because you didn't exert your usual control in a situation and maybe things didn't happen as they should have.
But you also open yourself up to the possibilities of new experiences. Of people entering your life that maybe would never have before. While it has been a huge adjustment for me to let go of excessive control I practice there have been benefits. I've found life long friendships I otherwise would never have imagined. I've been introduced to ideas, musics and books and had conversations I otherwise would never have had. I'm also rediscovering myself. That is the best gift I could give myself.
I've tried to give myself time to just be. It's a slow process and right now still intensely personal while I figure my way around. But I'm learning. Slowly. And I also know I don't have to rush it. Doing it on my terms and in my way is what it is about. After all this is my life. I need to savour all the gifts that pop out the bag.... one at a time and each fully in all their glory.