I'm a 'quoty' person... Any of us on Facebook, Pinterest and the like come across hundreds of these little motivational sayings every day. They pop up in our inboxes as chain mail, litter our newsfeeds and have their own dedicated section on Pinterest.
I love words... except for Stephen King I will read just about anything... even the back of the cereal box.
I've been actively writing now for just over 50 days and I have unlocked a passion inside of me that had been buried deep for far too long. I want to explore that passion and nurture it to its full potential. It is soothing and gives me my voice back.
I share these quotes that pop up all the time (haha some of you may even have hidden me on your newsfeeds). That's ok. I share them for a few reasons : my love of words, at times the quote says something I am unable to find my own words for, or it may just help someone who reads it...
Todays quote speaks to me. Right now I'm dealing with some challenging tough issues (again.. and here I thought 2014 may be quiet!). However instead of spinning, as I usually would have, I'm calm... (that could be dangerous). It is a situation nobody should have to deal with, but it's landed in my lap. So be it... Before I would have been hunting down the answers, demanding them, hammering away until I received them on my time. This time I'm not. I'm asking the questions, absorbing the information if and when I receive it, making my notes, processing, writing ....
I don't know if I'm right or wrong. Finally I've realised it isn't actually about being right or wrong. I can't be either all of the time so I need to be happy to live with my 50/50 odds. And it's actually ok. The situation I'm dealing with sadly means there are no winners... somebody is going to be hurt regardless of whether it is the truth or a lie. I have to have faith that no matter what the outcome my current reaction to the situation and my way of dealing with it is correct in the circumstances. Yes a lot of people have told me I'm doing it exactly right.. but there's that little niggling voice of self-doubt, so...
It's a huge leap of faith for me.
I don't like surprises, ever.
I don't like the unknown, ever.
Here I'm dealing with the potential of the first and the certainty of the second.
So I will have faith in my own judgement, in my instincts and in my belief that while I may not have all the answers, I do have the knowledge on which to assess the situation to try and make the right choices. Only time will tell the outcome. In the meantime I know that regardless of that outcome I will be ok without knowing all the answers this instant.