Chiming in - the title.
Some of you may have heard of Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way. I did the course online last year (well bits of it - I'm still trying to finish it!) after working through Brene Brown's course. In my Facebook wanderings I stumbled across a group of ladies who had set up a group for keeping in touch afterwards. We did The Artists Way together and one of the things we now do is Chime In on a Friday. It's only recently I've started doing that again. And it's made me realise I'm not alone.
I'm solitary by nature and circumstance. I live in my head a lot. I try and sort things out on my own without being a burden, often at the expense of my health and sanity. In the last week I've reached out to the ladies in my Chime In group for support. In doing so I've realised that I'm not the only one really struggling. It doesn't matter what the struggle is about. It is the fact that I'm not as alone as I feel a lot of the time. We all share similar stories and they never hesitated to connect with me when I needed it most. For that I am most grateful.
Sometimes it does take people who are not as close to you to help you through a bad patch. I have people here in my life who are supporting me and love me and for that I'm grateful to but there are times I feel I am too much of a burden to them.
I'm still struggling with a lot. In the last 6 weeks there has been a lot which has happened and my capacity for change, acceptance and bouncing back is not what it used to be so right now this is all I'll say. Somehow I'll figure it all out, spread my wings again and soar. Right now I just need to be a bit quiet and reflective.
It's enough just to know I'm not alone.