It was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think you've lost time.
It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now.
And now is right on time."
~ Asha Tyson
noun: journey; plural noun: journeys
an act of travelling from one place to another.
verb: journey; 3rd person present: journeys; past tense: journeyed; past participle:journeyed; gerund or present participle: journeying
And in the true spirit of mindfulness the rewards lie not in the destination but in the present moments of the journey itself. It is along this journey that you will discover your authentic self. Here you will encounter people who will leave their mark on your life, good or bad, as you will do in return to theirs. And I believe the journey never ends, as even after death we all leave a little bit of ourselves in the hearts of those we have loved and those who have loved us.
Perhaps part of the journey is decided before we are born but for the most part the direction it takes will be dictated by the choices we make over time. While we cannot control the circumstances of our birth we are the authors of our own destinations by the choices we make.
My journey has taken me on paths I didn't even imagined existed but as a result I have grown in ways I wouldn't have other wise. I believe the challenges I have faced first set me on a path which led me to turn to photography as therapy and eventually to writing to heal. Somewhere in that combination lies my destiny but I'm happy to enjoy the wandering path as I learn more each day. Life will always offer up challenges no matter how much you try and control everything. So don't bother mapping out every moment, year and decade. Rather have a general plan but know that there will be detours along the way. Accept the detours as part of the journey and embrace the present moment for what it is, good or bad.
Am I where I imagined I would be 20 years ago as a 19 turning 20 year old? Definitely not!
But I finally believe that I'm where I'm meant to be and that is what counts in the end. Acceptance of myself and what I have achieved.
While I still may wonder at the reason for some of the things I've dealt with over the years I know without a doubt I wouldn't be half the woman I was today if I hadn't gone through every single one of those events. In the particular moment it was hard, way harder then I possibly even remember. But I faced all of the challenges or obstacles, even on the days when all I wanted to do was die, and I "slayed" some fierce dragons along the way! I guess it's like being a new Mom. You think you are going to walk around for the rest of your life looking like a half baked Zombie due to early mornings but before you know it you blink your eyes and instead of a bouncy toddler up at the crack of dawn to wake you there is now a moody teen who only emerges at dark (if you are lucky)... although the main need still seems to be food no matter what the age. But things change and before you know it the challenge you were facing today has been conquered and you are moving onto the next part of your journey.
So enjoy the journey for what it is. Like with everything there has to be balance so accept that as part of your journey there will always be good and bad moments. Tune in to what makes you happy and follow that pathway - you never know where it will lead you.
Do not make the destination your goal. Make the journey your passion of discovery.