The ties that bind... in the case of motherhood quite literally the umbilical cord that nourishes our unborn child until birth. But that link is really broken and it takes extreme self-care on the part of the mother, of teenage and adult children, to really let go. I struggle with this. I know that about myself and am looking at fostering healthier boundaries so that I remember I too am a person, outside of being a mother, and that means I am entitled to live my life as best I can. That means putting myself first, even when feeling torn.
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There are no words to describe the devastation which has been left in the wake of torrential downpours experienced in Durban in the last 24 hours. Up to 165mm of rain over that period resulting in mudslides, roads under water, houses buried and up to 2000 calls to emergency services in that same period of time. Water is by far the most destructive force to deal with ... I am grateful that all I had to deal with was a small inconvenience of water coming through the ceiling. My broken heart is with all of those who suffered far greater consequences...
With 2 weeks to go until I write my first exam I am not sure whether I should start to panic or not... you know that feeling you get as the date creeps ever nearer... nah what I don't know now I'll never know feeling. Studying for my BA degree, with majors in English and History, and Linguistics as a third is either going to be the best thing I have ever done... or the stupidest thing I decided to embark on at my age. I haven't decided yet... and I most likely won't decide until it is done...
It has been an odd week which threw relationships, religion and ritual under the spotlight... the burning of the Notre Dame just before Easter certainly brought religion and ritual to the foreground of conversations. The Notre Dame has seen many religious rituals in its 800+ year history... and the reactions of people across the spectrum then threw relationships into that mix... friends and family disagreeing over how to process this loss and the outpouring of grief for a building against a backdrop of a world on fire... there are no easy answers.
Remember to show respect towards each other regardless... We all have those oddities that make us who we are - otherwise known as our quirks. It is human nature to be different from the person next to you and is what makes us uniquely us. I think our quirks become some a part of us that if something is skipped it can cause a great amount of discord in our minds.
Two of mine... my bread must be buttered to all four corners, don't leave those corners bare... and I count my steps when walking and am uncomfortable if I reach my destination on an even number... odd yes... |
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You reach a point of accepting that you made mistakes,
they cost you dearly and that you can't change the past. At that point you stop raging against your history, accept it, and move forward into a calmer, less self destructive frame of mind. Archives
April 2020
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