Joy.... A simple word for a complex and elusive emotion. To experience true joy allow yourself to be fully present in this moment. Joy isn't found in the memory of a moment passed. Nor in the anticipation of a moment to come. It is in the pause of the present. Watching a butterfly settle on a flower, breathing in the salt air, listening to the gentle dripping of water after the storm has passed or listening to the sound of your child's laughter. Joy is with you every moment you live, you simply need to open your heart to receive.
You reach a point of accepting that you made mistakes,
they cost you dearly and that you can't change the past.
At that point you stop raging against your history,
and move forward
into a calmer, less self destructive frame of mind.